I feel like I haven’t blogged in forever. I’ve had the Tallahassee crud, so my sinuses have been clogged, and I have been trying to get some rest whenever I have had down time. Last week, I got the first fever blister I’ve had in years, so I knew it was time to slow down.
But I miss y’all!!!
I have also been spending a lot of my “days off” with my new beau, Justin. How exciting it is to be in the beginning of a new relationship! I promised my dear cousin Daryl that I would not settle this time around, and I am happy to announce that I am actually smiling again. A lot.
Justin is a Godly man, and he is taking the time to meet with his pastor today about the best ways to progress with our relationship so that it honors our Lord and our individual families. We pray together and for each other, and we are listening to a sermon series together on marriage and families, because, quite frankly, we have both screwed that up in the past.
When I say I have peace, I cannot even explain to YALL the difference this man has made in my life. With that, it feels like all of the adrenaline has gone out of my body from the last two years’ worth of trauma, and I could sleep for that long of a time. I am actually able to make it through an entire night of uninterrupted rest now, which is absolutely incredible.
I do want to add that I have the blessings of my spiritual and legal counsel to date again; and, under no circumstances, will my kids be involved until I am divorced and I am certain that they are ready on their own time.
But I am so incredibly excited, and I ask for your prayer over this young relationship. Whether it is meant to last for months or years, there is no doubt that God has placed Justin in my life for a reason, to give me what I have not had in a really long time– HOPE.
*My pastor’s sermons are not online, and I often listen to the gospel while I’m traveling in the car.
I think it is because they are from my hometown and I grew up knowing them and their families, but I turn to two pastors’ sermons for guidance– Pastor Jason Johns is at the First Baptist in Lake Butler, Florida, and Pastor Jesse Pickett is at Grace Covenent Presbyterian in Hilliard. Both are incredibly brilliant, scholarly men, and I always feel moved by the Holy Spirt while studying God’s word through their teachings.
My sweet friend from home, Pastor Garrett Conner, has also reached out to me and has been praying for me and my family, as has my high school pastor and his wife, Brother Ron Kimbrell and Miss Sue.
I am so grateful that, during this most difficult time in my life, I have been covered in God’s love through prayer.